I am 24 year old, well educated from top college of India working in Wipro right now, joined it 6 month ago. 1) I did my 10th from boarding school then I came back to Patna (native home).My brother suffering from Bipolar Mood disorder (mania).My father is also Doctor. His treatment is still going on from last 8 year. When I was doing +2 he was extremely violent to any extent like a wild animal. He hit me like animal once he started, and spend all my father money. We became financial so insecure also. I Prepare for various competition exam simultaneously and got good engineering college. I spend 3 yr with him. My brother also hate me because I am most ugly person of my family even my own brother-sister are very beautiful. Very contrast to me as everybody said. 2) I am not at all beautiful because of this am suffering from inferiority complex a lot. Basically of dark complexion. I always avoid meeting people. I hate my look .I don’t want to look myself in mirror. 3) Because of him we started to cut off from whole world. I have no any desire, gradually I became very introvert. (During my childhood days I was very naughty and talkative). 4) Now I fell in love with one person (now he is in Delhi and I m in Bangalore)…He always insisted me for sex…he talk to me only about physical. But I avoid him ….I supported him always emotionally… he also care about me.But I felt that he utilise me as for emotionally. Now I feel I cannot leave without him. (He always tell me on phone to put-off my cloth…Phone sex) I now feel very drag about him 5) I spend my whole life in hostel and never went home during holiday to home. 6) My boyfriend is very intelligent also in Wipro but he is sick about sex. 7) I have one very bad habit of masturbation which makes me very depressive. (Help me to get out from it) 8) I also suffering from grate mood fluctuation. Very happy to very depression. 9) I was student of pharmaceutical science and then join software due financial problem .even I scored in GATE -97.47 (PG entrance exam). I dropped my higher education. I face lot problem in office also which make me very frustrated. 10) I also became more frustrated because of other person behaviour towards me. My mind always talks to myself and talk make me very panic. AM I ALSO SUFFERING FROM MOOD DISORDER? NOW I WANT TO DO SOMETHING IN LIFE. I want to attain great height in life in spiritual world as well as in professional world. I am very emotional person. HELP ME.