Dear Sir, I had 2 affairs in past. During first affair, let’s say her name as T. This relation continued (last) for 1 year. We met each other 6-7 times. We were from same cast. We used to talk over phone for long. Generally we used to talk about our marriage and future life etc… I used to enjoy talking with her. We didn’t have any physical relation. Even we didn’t touch each other. Ours was a purely emotional relation. Our economic status was not equal. She was richer than me at that time. Also, I was just passed out my college and was not well settled at that time. She always used to realize me my economic condition. However I was very crazy for her and wanted to marry her. She was very practical and I was emotional. Though, we had feelings for each other. She always telling that “you are a very nice and kind person and the girl who marry you, will be very lucky”. Though she liked me too much, was not 100% ready to marry me. She was telling that let’s carry on our relation as it is and don’t expect marriage. Once, due to some misunderstanding I got angry with her and she got hurt badly. Though after that I apologized but she was disappointed with me and not ready to talk to me. The level of misunderstanding increased and we got separated. After sometime (1-2 year) I had affair with other girl. Say her as “N”. This girl was totally different than “T”. “N” loved me too much. Initially I was not that much serious in relation but seeing her love for me gradually I become serious. Again, we were from same cast. Our economic condition was equal. In this relation, “N” was emotional and I was practical. Here also we used to talk over phone for long and I used to enjoy talking with her. After almost 3 years, we decided to get engaged. But again due to some misunderstanding we got separated. I was very sad for sometime after breaking of each relation. Now I have got engaged with other girl say “D”. The problem comes here. I talk with my fiancée over phone for long but I don’t enjoy talking with her. I feel that I don’t love her from bottom of my heart. I feel that I just perform my duty as fiancé towards her. Though “D” loves me too much and much crazy for me. I know that “D” is much better than “T” and “N”. However, I don’t enjoy her Company as of “T” and “N” .I have not told her about my previous 2 affairs. I try my best to make her happy. I don’t do any injustice to her. I am totally devoted to her. But, often when I am alone, I still remember “T” and the time spent with her. 7 years passed to the breakup with “T” but still I remember her I want to enjoy company of my fiancée and want to forget the ex girlfriends and affairs with them. What should I do to get rid of this problem? Also, for so many times (almost 1-2 years) I don’t feel happiness from bottom of my heart. I am well educated, earning well (more than enough) and healthy. Other people can say that I am very happy. But I feel that something is missing in life and I am running to achieve it. I don’t know what is it for which I am running? How can I be happy?